One thing I’ve realised recently is that I really have a lot of trouble with self-care? Like, I’m very good at making sure other people take their meds, do things, etc., but I’m not particularly good myself.
I think I need to work on this. The university term is starting tomorrow, and I don’t know how well I’ll be able to handle it. I just baaarely scraped by on maths, the subject that I’m majoring in, so that… isn’t great.
Another problem that I have at uni, incidentally—this is kind of unrelated, but fuck it, I’m putting it here anyway—is attempting to motivate myself away from food that I don’t need to have. There’s food at home, and I bring that AND water to uni… I don’t know.
Basically: I need to take better care of myself. It’ll help with money, with weight, with depression, and with being a better person in general. I think that’s part of why I started this blog, honestly. True, basically no one is reading, but it´’s good to have something that I can easily look back on, isn’t it?
I’m not suuuper overweight? But I’m still a few kilograms over a healthy weight, and considering how many people in my family are morbidly obese, it’s bad. So every Sunday (like today!), at the end of the day, I’ll weigh myself, and put the weight in a blog.
Current weight: 73.7 kg
Being fit is also important, but right now? It’s not what I need to focus on.
Like I said earlier, uni starts tomorrow, which is… kind of exciting? Honestly, I’m not as excited about this term as I have been for previous terms. Maybe that’s just because I’m not in the best of moods right now, I don’t really know.
Still don’t have any form of employment, sadly. I’d quite like to get a job at uni, because it would just be convenient, but I can’t say for sure if I’m ready to pull that off right now. Yesterday I talked with my therapist, Ellis, about this kind of thing for a bunch, and it wasn’t the most fun session ever. Hopefully next time we can really focus on it.
It’s been a fairly slow news day today—well, as slow as news days are in these times. I’m probably going to be discussing my opinions on news here? Because I’m an old woman? For any future historians looking to get some insight on what outsiders thought about the news of the day: I am extremely left-wing. Eat the rich, punch Nazis, et cetera, et cetera. There, now you don’t have to wonder about potential biases.
I can see myself attempting to stretch this blog post out further, so that probably means I’ve written enough for today. There might be more to talk about tomorrow, there might not. Cutting edge insight! Huzzah!